February 14th, 2024

They say what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger.  Well here’s a thought….

In the mist of making you stronger it is in fact killing a little piece of you. The piece of you that’s lost is replaced with strength. Which, in turn, over time makes us stronger in similar situations. 

Strength doesn’t always take away the pain internally. The pain of losing piece after piece until you’re empty. Emotionally scarred. Left with nothing. You turn to fill the holes left behind. Alcohol drugs sex. Something just to get the pain to stop. Even if just for a few short hours. 

Your heart feels something that the brain cannot believe. Heart in one hand, brain in the other. We don’t like feeling feelings so we choose to listen to our brain. We listen as it tells us everything that’s wrong. We accept that we are a shitty person from a past mistake. Every reason we should worry. Makes us believe there is a problem but no problem to solve actually exists. Gives us reasons to not trust anybody because of that person who hurt us. Even if that person was ourselves. Listening is easier than feeling.

Life teaches us things. Life also has an ability to show us things we need to unlearn. Rewire. As we go through life we as people are ever changing. Both growing and adapting. Each day brings a new challenge for you to test this strength you’ve built up. Slowly the holes start to fill with the good things in life. Type of things that leave you with a smile for no reason. 

 Its takes a lot of courage to speak from the heart when the brain is telling you to shut up. To speak about the things that have killed pieces of  you. To speak about the strength that has risen from it. Stand in your truth. The words you speak are important and have meaning. Don’t conform your words to a box because you’re afraid of how people will respond if you let them out.  Let your past be your strength. Be powerful in the words you chose to use. Because you never know who out there is needing to hear you say them.