What makes a moment special?

Is it in the way it makes you smile?

Are you smiling right now? for no reason?

Is it in the way time kinda stands still?

Are you standing where your feet are?

Is it in the way it gets replayed?

Does it stay in your mind? 

Over and over does it replay?

It is in the way it leaves your heart?

Does your heart feel happy? 

Are you happy?

Is it in the people you spend it with?

Are these your people?

Do you trust the people that surround you?

Is it in the way it could be a random day?

Are you ready to celebrate?

Did you think you needed a reason too?

Are you sober today?

Yes? Then celebrate. 

No? Then let’s hit a meeting. 

Because drinking stole many of my special moments and I don’t want them to steal yours too. 

Moments come and moments go. We try to hold onto what we can. We as people make moments glow. You can make any moment special. It’s all about who you choose to share it with. Some moments happen once it passes you’re left with a forever feeling. Some moments happen you’d rather forget they even happened. Some moments you need to walk through. Again and again. Because you’re stubborn and didn’t learn the lesson the first time. Or second. Or maybe even third. I believe we are put through the same type of moments until we’ve learn the message we were suppose to receive. I’m proud of me but not as much as I’m proud of you. You belong in the light that at times feels too bright. Your voice is powerful. Speak up. Even if it starts as a whisper. Moments turn to memories. What kind of memories are you planning to have? 

There’s moments that aren’t so special. You know the ones. From the darkness. Back when all you knew how to do was RUN. But as we talk about them feelings get brought up with them. This is why I believe I’m still struggling with step 4. These raw memories moments trapped in time that I thought were locked away. Locked to be forgotten. Only now they’re alive. Waiting to be said. But to say them means reliving them. They say it’s freeing doing  1-12. Meanwhile I sit here wondering are they really that important? I know the answer I’m just trying to give myself an out. An excuse. A reason to just not do them. I want to turn my hand out. Put it out for the next me to take. Because that’s what was done for me.  How I can honestly do that if I never made it off step 4? I’ll keep coming back and working. I’m just gonna fight it every step. Question everything. This whole life thing I’m living now. It’s a special moment.